the name is TODD

or mordecai. or shinx. or basically any nicknames. it doesn't really matter too much to me. i'm an autistic shinxboy on the internet trying not to trip over his own paws as he navigates the, as of currently, very neurotypical climate on the web. for a long time i used social media for this process, and in some ways it worked (i've made some very nice like-minded friends through social media!), but in other ways it caused severe damage for me. i was not palatable to the average internet user and i am still not and i will no longer try to be. this is my own place to be free forever and always!!!!

i've been on the web basically my whole life, with the first place i made my online home being scratch.mit.edu, a children's coding website. i feel that that early exposure to coding was what led to me having such a huge interest in it today. i love creating things, it's what drives me to keep moving forward in the world, and i love doing things that feel like a puzzle. it just feels really great to build something, to click each little part together, and have it be all your own. this isn't my first website, which is probably evident given that i'm willing to wrestle with css grids - i took a break from coding for a bit for a variety of reasons, and now i'm back and filthy as ever.

as you would've guessed by this site's loose theming, i'm a big fat stoner. in fact, i coded a majority of this site while blasted on pot (at least, at the time of typing this). yes i AM one of those people that makes smoking weed their whole personality, it's not because i don't have any other hobbies i'm just autistic and have psychoactive drugs as a special interest. as a whole i advocate for the right to legal recreational use of all drugs, with heavy emphasis on harm reduction rather than abstinence for those with harmful addictions. some drugs can be really bad for you but a lot of them are Fine and i think people should have the dignity of risk anyway.

i live in the midwest (So Much Fucking Corn) and have basically my whole life. i am trans and identify as a "boy" in the most weird abstract sense of the word (i am a boy but i am not a binary male). i'm also a lesbian! my most favorite things in the whole entire world are my cats, any and all kinds of art, lsd, pokemon, and my best friend in the world, daniel! i hope you like my site, and if you don't i hope you rant about it to alllllll your friends so they can all check it out. meow!

the facts

"wow, they're literally me!"

questions and answers

"do you have any social medias?"

i do, but they're for (mostly irl) friends only. i only use them to keep in touch with those i care about and to sometimes share art. i am very wary of social media as a whole since i believe the environment cultivated on sites like twitter is toxic to the mind and heart. if you'd like to reach out to me, feel free to leave a comment on my message wall! i DO bite and it's very funny and endearing.

"what is your stance on this issue?"

i don't really have any interest in having discussions about politics or discourse online. if you really must know my stance on life in general, i believe anyone should be allowed to do whatever they want forever so long as no one is hurt. yes, that includes harmless things that might squick the average person out. being "normal" is for allistics that look at you weird when you stim.

"how can you be transmasc and a lesbian?"

i'm just that cool!

to tell you the truth, my sexuality is just as loose and ever-changing as my gender. which is natural - i am a person and people's identities and interests and priorities change over the course of their life. to me, lesbian means that, while i like dudes sometimes, my attraction to girls and whatnot is so intense and so inexorably queer in nature that it overpowers whatever semblance of heterosexuality i could get out of being into women. that combined with my gender already being weird is what makes me consider myself a transmasc lesbian. idk. i just know that i'm really really gay no matter what

"can we be friends?"

maybe! i have anxiety about talking to new people and i'm kind of socially inept, but i love meeting new friends, even if i'm not very good at it. part of the reason i made this site is so people like me could find it and see that they aren't alone. who knows, if we have a lot in common we might get along!

"hey you interact with/are friends with this person that did so and so and-"

i don't care. leave me out of callout culture.

"can you help me with this problem i'm having with my html/css?"

probably not, sorry. i have the type of autism where you're really well-versed in a thing but it's very hard to explain to people how to use it or how it works. i hope you can figure out how to solve your problem, though!

"can i reference your code?"

of course! in fact, you can literally just steal it if you want. i'm an anarchist, i don't care.

"are you based?"

extremely.